O meri jaan (maaneet OS)

O meri jaan

O Meri Jaan


From Movie TUM MILEY

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Music~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A tear escaped from his eyes, when he remind himself, rude behavior of hers, strange and a harsh words of hers, “Mr. Maan singh khurana , I can’t live with you, I can’t stand your side, I felt suffocating with the thought I am related to you, Hell, even I can’t bear your name behind mine”. He knew very well she didn’t meant those words, His Geet, his Mishty, his Jaan, can’t say anything like this, and above all how could he refuse his heart who knew that his mishty would prefer to die thousand times before spitting out such cruel brutal words before wrenching his word mercilessly .  


Hairan hai hum hue q tum gairon se

Kaisa hai ghum bolona tum honton se

Jab me waapas aaungha  toh me chahta hu, ke mujhe sab se pehle tum milo, sab se pehle tum dikho, jaise ke mere liye India aaney ka matlab hi tum ho, aur India me sirf tum hi ho jis ke liye me wapas aana chahta huu,

Achha ji toh mahashay aap chahtey hai ke me aap ke liye band baja aur haar lekar airport par aaouu aur zor zor se gaaon, Mera piya Ghar aaya O raam ji,

She smiled, her voice was evident of her happiness, seems like her each and every part knew how to express herself in front of him.

Nahi nahi toh me ne yah toh nahi kaha keh tum mere liye gaaon

To phir, she asked innocently and giggled … aur saat samundar paar Maan ko aisa lagha ke dhairo phul khil gaye ho…

Aisi khilkhilaati muskurahat thi us ski…  

Hmmm me toh chahta hu ke tum mujh se sab se special, sab se alag, sab se hat kar style me milo. He said mischievously…

Hmmm aur wo special style, ala gaur hatt kar style me kaise miloo aap hi batayie””.

Well Geet mujhe toh lagha tha ke tum both intelligent ho, lekin phir bhi agar tum chahti hut oh me batata hu,Tum mujh se aisa milna jaise samundar ki lehrein kinaarey se milti hai, tadap kar machal kar, jaise sham raat se milti hai, pur sukoon, khaamoshi se, jaise Nadi aakar samundar se milti bilkul aise jaise nadi ka mitha paani samundar ke khaarey paani me mil jata hai aur kisi ko pata bhi nahi chalta bilkul waise jaise”.

Maan aap both besharam ho gaye ho USA jaa kar, chiii”’

Arey Geet’ Geet suno toh” but  before he could say anything she cut the call, and maan hit the cell on his forehead and cursed himself to tease her at such extent that she actually cut the call””

But his smile wiped off like anything when reality hit him hard, so hard that he became numb for a time. that was a time when they weren’t get enough for each other, they loved to talk hours and hours together and nobody felt to disconnect the phone first, and here he came its 7th day of his arrival and she is nowhere, she became disappear like treasure of king, nowhere not even once in a Blue moon.


Na tum ho bewafa na mein bhi hoo

Phir bhi hai hum juda me kyaa kahoo

“Geet jaan what happen”, It was first time when he was talking with her after her mother died, Geet You know na I too love Bua, she was My own Dad’s sister,

So what should I do, I told you I damn care about it.

Her behavior was sending him to the edge of insanity, edge of craziness, He was trying his best to sooth her pain, he can understand, but she was nowhere to understand, even he was feeling guilty, he wanted to be there but the business contract and work was also important that his father ordered him not to come back till the work ends.

Me ne aap ko letter me likha tha ke me aap ke saath nahi rehna chahti, aap divorce papers par sign kar ke mujhe bhej dijiye.

Kon hai woh jis ke liye tum mujhe chhodna chahti ho bataao kon hai jis ke liye tum mujh se daghabaazi kar rahi ho Geet”””’.

She was stunt by his question, a tear escaped from her eyes, her pain, her anguish, her agony, that’s what all she was bearing since that dreadful evening.

Issey aap ko koi matlab nahi hona chahiye saying that she cut the call’..

 Na jaane waqt ki marzi hai kyaa

Q hai mili yeh duriyaan

He was standing near the window when he saw her, she was sitting on the grass, hugging her knees and her head was resting on it, he finally found her, she was in the same house, but where she was since last seven days, so many questions and answers were nowhere, he escaped so many stairs to meet her soon, he was right behind him when he heard sobbing sound, she was crying, his mishty was crying, he rest his hand on her shoulder, she straightened herself and snapped on him, looking him with disgusting face, and left the place without a single word…

   O meri jaan

He was standing outside her room, door was closed, and it was same like before with a single change which meant a lot to him…It was the same room where Geet used to live before her marriage with maan, both were first cousines’

Geet was maan’s Bua’s daughter’.. They shifted in house when her father Died’..she was bubbly, vivacious girl’….

Her bedroom door was painted with white bright color’ and there were lots of pictures of fairy and barbies’ and in mid of Door the sentence was written by her in bold letters and colorful pens

YAHA DUNIYA KI SABSE ACCHI AUR SABSE PYAARI FAIRY REHTI HAI…

The paper was missing from there…

You are not good girl Geet… He whispered as if trying to convince himself’

O meri jaan

Why couldn’t she sit with him once calmly, and sort out all the problem, why couldn’t she once just tell him that what was bothering her,,,,,,,,,,, Why’. Why… Why… The disgust on her face for him,  driving him crazy, he was falling in his own eyes, but why , why was that so difficult for her…

Why was she making life damn hell for both of them…

 O meri jaan

What happened to her so suddenly, why she couldn’t stand his sight, when her heart changed with her mind””””., where he could find his own mishty, his Geet, his Jaan, His shona, His maayeri, whom he lost so long””’

 O meri jaan  haaa

He was practicing Tai-chi, actually taking out his frustration by giving pain to him self…

So many questions and the answers were nowhere, he screamed in pain, and a tear rolled from his eyes, leaving a trail of its existence the pain given by her was now became unbearable for him. He was unable to breath, unable to found peace, solace in his life.

 Tere bin jo din aaya

Kaatey na who kat paya

Kami teri khal si jaati hai

He was searching something when file fall down from his closet. It was file of their letters. The letters which witnessed their love growing, which saw how their mutual understanding and friendship became strong. When he was in USA,  Being having all the facilities like Internet, telephone, cell phone, land line, they loved to write letters to each other, they used to write all their feelings on a single page, It was not about what they done whole day , and what they would do another day. It was depended on that how much they missed each other, when they missed most and when they felt another’s existence near them. It was their mutual unsaid agreement that when the one would woke up in the morning the letter of another will be waiting for one, to say Good Morning Jaan”..

 It was their daily routine and was important for both more than oxygen.

 Tere Bin joh sham aayi

badi dil ki tanhaai

meri aankhen bhar si jaati hai

It was raining outside heavily, she was standing near the window when she felt two strong arms holding her tightly, she closed her eyes in anticipation and her beautiful lips curves into smile, tear escaped from her eyes with the beautiful moment she was living, the wetness on her cheeks made her came out from her imaginings, she saw herself, No hands were there her waist was empty without his hand like her heart and life. She looked behind and the door was closed and only darkness was there in the room, like her life, seems after him only darkness is the thing which exist in her life. She closed her eyes and engulfed herself in the darkness.

 kuch tum mujh se khafa kuch me bhi hu

hai kyaa is ki wajah me kyaa kahoo

He went inside the kitchen to make coffee for himself, his wife was in his house, but they were not together, even he didn’t have right to ask for a coffee from her own wife, he taunted himself in the mind and entered into the kitchen, when he saw her, saw his life again, but was she his life, she was looking serene, angelic, beautiful like always”’

Her eyes were innocent like always but the naughtiness which was vital part of her eyes were missing, and it didn’t go unnoticed by him…

How anybody can look so beautiful even after breaking, even after shattering someone’s heart so badly that his entire existence become a question for himself,

Well we can’t judge anyone, Dekhne me toh Saanp (snake)bhi khubsurat hota hai, lekin uska zehrile dant hi kisi ki zindaghi ko khatam karney ke liye kaafi hoteyy hai,,”””””.

The venom which exist in snake was more powerful than his beauty”’..she was engrossed in her  own thoughts that even didn’t felt his presence, till he came really near behind him.  She was stunned because of his sudden closeness; they both looked at each other,her eyes were same, the eye ball were same, the mind were same, the physical existence were same, but something was changed something which changed both of them really deeply, drastically they  both looking at each other,

 Maan , how can he forgive her for being so rude, for being so disgusted, for being so harsh, the deceive in his eyes , the regret in his eyes was evident to loving her so deeply, so crazily, that here she was wrenching his heart every day and he couldn’t do anything more than standing numb and bearing all  the pain given by her.

 

naa jane waqt ki marzi hai kya

q hai mili yeh duriyaan

Their eyes met, met for a minute, but it seems like eternity, they both were ready to lost in each other””

The plead in Geet’s eyes’. The pain in Maan’s eyes”..

Both were craving for each other’ but both were detach, detach from each other’ Far away far far away from others reach”

Why is that so’..When we love someone does their presence can give us pain’.. When we love someone why we always able to forgive their biggest mistake’.

But why we couldn’t leave them just like we left the others who give us pain’. Why is that so’

Why love became pain just in a fraction of moment”’

Why love become hatred with just a different glimpse of lover”

 

O meri jaan

He was passing through passage ”.

When her words made him stop at his place’.

As if his body froze’.. His ears were eager to know something, His sixth sense was alarming that something worst was coming’..

 O meri jaan

He felt that the reason of Geet’s behavior is related to the same thing which they were talking about.

Inside the Room”

Geet was talking with her sister in law”

Bhabhi: Geet why don’t you try at once”.Ghar me tumhara relation maan ke saath kaisa ho gaya hai har kisi ko pata hai’.

Agar tum uss ke saath wo saari baatein chhupa kar new start nahi kar sakti than do one thing uss ko sab kuch bata do’..

Har ek baat us raa’..

But before she can complete geet cut her’.

Nahi bhabhi’.. nahi’..   Me nahi kar paaunghi”

She said painfully, that kasak the pain of losing something very precious was evident in her voice’..

Maan was stunned; he understood whatever the reason behind her behavior this is the same thing they were talking about. 

 

O meri jaan

What they were hiding from me’. The whole house knew about Geet and My relation’. Well jis ghar me khana tak saath beth kar khaatey hai waha itni badi baat kaise chhup sakti hai’.

Maan came out from his thoughts when he heard sobbing sound from her room’

Bhabhi u won’t believe, main aaj bhi Maan se utna hi pyaar karti hu jitna 1 saal pehle karti thi’.

Ya shayad uss se bhi zyada’.

Uss ki bechaini, mere liye uski tadap mujhe sukoon deti hai’

Me uss ko chhodna chahti hu aur wo mujhe pane ke liye bechain hai’.

Me uss ke saath nahi rehna chahti aur wo mere saath ke liye ji raha hai’

Lekin yeh sukoon aur solace sirf thodey time ke liye hi hota hai’

I know how much maan is possessive for his relations”.. aur mere liye toh uski yeh possessiveness junoon ban jati hai’ I know how much he adored his relations, and how much he wanted them to be perfect’.

Jhuut Dhoka, dagha in sab se both duur hai mere maan’.

Itne acche insaan ko mujh jaisi characterless ladki ka saath”.

Nahi nahi bhabhi I don’t deserve him’

Geet its just your point of view, tumhaari soch ki upaj agar yeh sab kuchh us waqt hota jab maan yaha they tab, tab bhi kya tum maan ko chhod deti’

Tab ki baat aur thi tab kismet shayad aisa gandah khail hi nahi khelti’.

Darr laghta hai bhabhi, both darr laghta hai’

Raaton me jab wo sapne aatey hai’..

Me maan ke pyaar ke saharey ji lunghi bhabhi lekin un ki badalti nazrein mujhe jitey ji maar daaleinghi…

Aaj agar meri duniya ujdi hui hai phir bhi maan ki mohabbat mujhe har roz uss din ko jine ka hosla deti hai…

Aaj maan ki nazron me mere liye gussa sahi, dard sahi pyaar bhi toh hai.. me wohi aankho me apne liye nafrat, disgust, loath nahi dekh sakunghi bhabhi 

Jab me yeh sochti hu ke Kya hogha jab maaan ko sach pata chalegha Meri Rooh kaanp uthati hai’.

 

O meri jaan

A tear escaped from Maan’s eyes. Realization of his mishty’s pain was not giving him space for even breath…

Bas karo Geet bas karo, Boht ho gayi tumhaari bakwaas, Bhabhi said harshly, though she really didn’t intended to but she knew that Geet is in such a fragile state that she needed to do it.

Hum sab tumhey kucch nahi kehtey iskaa matlab yeh nai hai ke hum tumhhari baton se sehmat ho jaatey hai’.

Tum apne dard ki baat karti ho’

Maan ke dard ko dekha hai tumne’.1.5 saal apne ghar, apni patni se dur rehney ke baad jab wo wapas aaya , tab tumney us ke saaamney kaisi sharth rakhi, kyaa manga tumney uss se ”.

Divorce?????

Agar us ki jagah koi aur mard hota toh kab ka tumhaarey munh par divorce papers maaar kar chala gaya hota’

Lekin wo maan ki mohabbat thi jo us ko aisa karney se rokti rahi’.

Wo janta tha us ki geet normal situation me uss ke samney aisi sharth kabhi nahi rakhti’.

Apni nahi uss ke mohabbat par toh vishwaas rakhti’.

Jab pyaar kiya tha toh bharosa bhi karti’..


Tujhey dil se tha chaha

Tu hi toh na mil paya

Khushi mujhe ko chhal si jaati hai

Maan actually frozen there, it means whole family knows the truth except me’ certain anger, anguish, feeling of devastation took place’ What happened with his Geet’

Why they all were hiding, what was that truth, Do i have any right on her life’.

When she could share the truth with everyone couldn’t she share it with me’.

Bloody helll…

He was feeling outsider in his own house, just like a guest, in front of whom whole family pretended to be fine’.

And Geet”’.. She was his soul mate’ his life partner’.

They vowed to each other of sharing not only every blissful moments but also poignant moments’.

Why she broke her promise’. Maan was feeling like to choke.

Pyaar toh kar liya Geet Bharosa bhi kar leti’.

Jab purey ghar waaley tum ko tumhaari  sacchai ke saath apna saktey hai toh me q nahi??

Me aur tumhara rishta to un ke aur tumhaarey rishtey se zyada mazbut, zyada atut hai na’.

He asked her in his mind.. As if she was listening to all his words”..’  


Mera tu tha sarmaya

Tujhe paa kar na paya

Yehi baatein chubh si jaati hai

 

Bhabhi me kyaa karu aap hi btaao mujhey, she said helplessly, the poorness of her mind, the turmoil of her soul was evident in her each and every motion.

Kyaa bata du uss ko ke us ki Gee tab pehle ki tarah pure nahi rahi…

Maan hamesha boltey they Geet u belong to me…

I possess you… Kyaa bolu unn ko Now I m no more urs…

I couldn’t be anyone’s…

Agar meri jagah koi aur ladki hoti to shayad ab tak sucide attempt kar leti but how shameless I am still breathing…I don’t deserve him…

He is best and I am worst…he is a king and now I am no more than a beggar…

He is a sun of a sky and I am garbage…

Kyaa Jodi aisi banti haiii bhabhi…

Nahi na hai na bhabhi aisi bematlab jodiyaa nahi banti na

She said painfully as if she was trying to convince herself.

I read somewhere God made pair according to their nature and characters…

Best get best and worst get worst… Phir aisa kyuu

Agar me accho thi toh mere saath aisa q hua…

Unn darindo ne mujhe chutey hui kuch socha q nahi… Meri rooh tak koh jhinjhod diya… mujh par toh sirf maan ka haqq tha na phir aisa q…

They Raped me Bhabhi… It was not a small thing Bhabhi…

Damn they raped me…

What should I say to maan Bhabhi… Tell me what should…

That Ur geet is no more Divine, No more pure like before…

Mummy is baat ko she nahi paayi… wo muhje chhod kar chali gayi… Maan kehtey they geet tum ek baar bulaana dekhna me foran tumharey paas aa jaaoungha phir…

Phirr… q nahi aaye who…

Issiliye na may be because I deserved that…

Aur agar me buri thi toh maan ko mujh se hi mohabbat hona thi kyaa

maan toh itne acchey hai phir mujh jaisi ladki un ki qismat me …

She was saying and crying bitterly… sobbing heavily…

Maan felt like the sky fall down on him… Ohh God…

Geet…

He was so numb that the process of breath in and breath out was also become difficult for him… He pushed the door to open…

 

 

Dono hai ghamzada me kya kahoo

Naa jaaney waqt ki marzi hai kyaa

The door opened certainly both Bhabhi and Geet became silent for a moment and their eyes widened in horror as they saw person standing on the door with; aghast expression… geet almost stopped breathing… She was horrified totally horrified… She prayed only one thing since last one whole year..

Maan was unaware of the truth and she was praying that he never make out with that truth… The horrible, terrified truth which change her life devastatingly…

Maan was coming near them… His each step was geet feeling on her heart…

 

 

Q hai mili yeh duriya

Maaa… But before she could utter a single word he lifted his hand in front and stopped her by saying anything…

Geet’s heart shattered into pieces seeing him like this.  His red blooded eyes and heavy breathing is showing his internal turmoil, his havoc was nowhere to end as if the lawa which was burning him from inside from so many days was going to burst out today and it will burn the whole world including both of them…

But his Eyes… What was that… Something which was unreadable… The  Geet was shocked, really heart, the deceive; the pain was evident in his eyes… Suddenly he stopped in the mid… and took the steps back… his mind and eyes were nowhere except her… her petite fragile figure, as if he wanted to burn her with his intense gazed. Swiftly he turn and Geet’s mind too, He started walking fastly so that Geets mind started made new decision with full confidence.. He started running and her heart shattered seeing her life slipping from her hands as if it was sand.

 

 

O meri jaan

The Room was empty so that her life, her heart, the tiny miny hope, ray of sun of life which seems rose in her life drowned, drowned sarcastically. Her life and Fortune was again laughing on herself, teasing her with their cruelty. She saw him leaving home… and she felt like her life was living her body…

She decided living without him is nothing but to die every day… so why not to die at once…

Everyone will cry for 3 days and that’s it…

The chapter would be close for ever… she tookSleeping pills and  emptied the whole bottle of sleeping pills and drank water butt why… Why death is slow… She didn’t wanted to take a single breath after this… she took out the blade from the side corner… and with the dizzy eyes she cut her wrist.. she fainted immediately on the spot leaving  shock and horrified bhabhi and Bhaiya on the door who just came to see her after Maan left without a single word…

 

 

O meri jaan

He drove crazily…

He drove madly…

He drove insanely…

They raped me Bhabhi…

He accelerated…

What should I say him…

 He increased the speed…

The speed of the car was indicating her internal havoc…

 

 

O meri jaan

He came back…

After whole 1 week…

And the whole week was like hell for the family member…

Geet was mostly on the death bed… The will power of living life, the willingness to enjoy her self was almost disappeared like maan, her Maan , who was nowhere to trace…

They called to his each and every friend and they were literally shocked with maan’s absence like this…

He entered into the gate…

Wohi Ruk jaao Maaan …

His father stopped him on the door… he was standing there with dipped head… lawa was bursted out in last one week… He was burning in his own hell

Kyaa samajh rakha hai tum ne pati patni ke rishtey ko ??

Mazaq hai… Jab chaha apna liya aur jab chaha chhod diya…

Hum ne tum se pehle hi kaha tha …Agar ussey apnana chahtey ho toh bina kuch pucchey apna lo…

Pehle to tum uss ko paaney ke liye bechain they aur phir phir kyaa hua us ski sachaai jaan kar chhodna chahtey ho…

Maan lifted his head … The thought of leaving her is something beyond his imagination

How how can he left his life…
How can he wish to left the breathing…

Bas kijiye dad bas kijiye…

Aap ko uss ke dukh ka andaaza hai mere dard ka nahi…

Maana jo uss ke saath hua wo galath tha … Par aap logon ne mere saath kyaa kiya …

Mujhe dhoke me rakh kar aap kyaa paa lete…

Jab aap log sachhai jaan kar ussey apna saktey thy to kyaa me nahi apna sakta tha … Itna hi samjha tha aap logon ne aur uss ne mujhe…

Me kaha tha ek hafetyy

Aap mujhey batayiye sach jann ney ke baad meh kyaa karta uss ke paas jaa kar uss ke saamney dukh ka izhaar karta

Jis sadmey me wo picchley ek saal tak thi kyaa me ek haftey nahi reh sakta tha…

He said and went towards their room …

When Bhabhi stopped him in the mid…

Maan bhai she is in next to your room…

He was stunned … That room was simply like a hospital ward…

Whyy… Why she was there…

She attempted to kill her self…

He was looking her blanky…

Sleeping Pills…she said with dipped head

He closed his eyes in order to reduce the pain which certainly occurred in his heart…

 

O meri jaan

 

He opened the door, and there she was sitting and crying …

A tear slipped from his eyes … while he looked at her …

She was pale her hair was massive and the dress … anyone can estimate more than two days she might be in same dresss…

Hugging her knees… her head was totally inside the hollow of her knees … and the certain motion was indicating that she was crying…

Maan swept his hand on his face in order to calm himself…

In order to calm his anger which were having no bound after looking her…

But he has to strong for her… For the sake of his Geet…

He smiled a bit and went near her…

Geet heard all their heated argument with maan, she was crying continuously and registered one more undid sin, in her life…

Maan came… Came for her… the thought was giving her life again…

She actually feeling alive with the thought only…

He put his hand on her shoulder and she turned and hugged him…

Hugged tightly as if fearing to lost him again.. she clutched his shirt and her tears wetting his shirt…

Hum jin ko kaanch se zyada naazuk tasawwur kartey hai aksar zamana un ke saath bura sulook karta hai…

He thought and a tear escaped and disappeared in her long black hairs.

Why Maan… Whyyy Love hurts a lot…

My love hurt you,…

Your love make me weak.. Why is that so… she said with heavy sobbing…

Maan feeling helpless because of her condition but he again put all the strength together… He have to strong for her… to make her out of that hell of guilt and rumorse…

No Geet…

Jaan … Love never hurts mishty…

He was using all the words together, all the name which he gave her,  to his mishty …

Love never hurts…

Loneliness hurts… Rejection hurts…Envy hurts…Everyone gets these things confused with love … But in reality love is the only thing in this whole universe that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again…

And Love , My love my care, My worship for you would make you mine once again…

I was so scared Maan… I…

Shhh Geet no love… Forget all the things… I am with you na baby…

We will start from the beginning we will live our life once again…

And they slam their lips in each other’s as if there was no tomorrow…

O meri jaa haaa haaa

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Music~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Advertisements

3 comments on “O meri jaan (maaneet OS)

  1. Pingback: Link to One short stories | Bahisht (My Paradise)

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s